Darwin
Monday, December 22, 2008
Today is Mother's Day in Indonesia, unlike international Mother's Day which falls in May, Indonesia has its own Mother's Day (MD). This year, MD has gone further into a better celebrated event in Indonesia. I can see so many articles on newspaper discussing mother's role, ads on MD and so many more.
Miss my mom. How i wish to have a dinner with her today, together with other family members. Just to let her know how proud i am with her, how much i appreciate her role in bringing us up. Yes, with my current workload, can't spend much time with her, and when we meet, don't know how to describe the feeling, but one thing for sure, would like to say Happy Mother's Day. I love you, Mom.
Sure, it must have been very hard for you to raise us. From when we were small, with all the problems we create, all the living cost that you have to cover, with all the hard work you endured over the last 20 something year. Today, i believe you are proud of us, just as how proud we are of you. Looking back all the hard years, guess everything worths. We hope we won't let you down, just like you never let us down over the years. God bless you, Mom.
Stranded in hotel, it's 1 am now and i am still very much awake. Confused with all the hectic schedule, the effort done to make everything work, to challenge my inner self as well as to grow.
I have been facing some problems and yes, for sure i know i can handle them but somehow, i feel i am so tired. Keep asking myself in the last few days, am i doing the right thing? are all these worth it? Maybe I feel exhausted, maybe, but yet, i have no idea who i can run into, to share all these.
One question just popped up on my mind, what is the meaning of life? working so hard for what? actually what i am looking after? confused, furious with myself. How come even I myself cannot answer my life goal? What a fool! Speechless...